Going to Weekly Posts

It’s been 249 days since I reopened my Breast Cancer Journal detailing my daily activities, medical appointments and procedures, thoughts, prayers & meaningful songs. I am beyond blessed for the Million Little Miracles that have been generously given and the gifts of time, love, letters, prayers, lives & beautiful things so many have shared in these past 8 months!! I’ve had a caring husband by my side every day with patience, understanding, assistance, grace and chauffeuring me to every appointment but one!! There are cousins, Mary and Kathleen, who’ve sent me handmade cards practically weekly!! I’ve had dozens of family and friends demonstrate Christ-like love in ways that teaches me how to better love on others. I’ve had so much that I have Gratitude for! 

I’ve decided that 249 days has been long enough to blog daily so after today’s infusion visit, I’ll only blog weekly unless something significant happens.

 I’m feeling great and other than my infusions every 3 weeks, scans every 3 months & minor side effects from the meds, my life feels normal and my days are just regular. I cook, clean, hike and backpack…

bike…

go to the grocery store, hang out with friends…

wash my car, read and sleep just like many of my readers. Yes, I have a crazy terminal stage 4 breast cancer diagnosis but it sounds way worse than I feel, so I’m choosing to just live my life and only write weekly about the highlights. If anyone wants to know more, then reach out and text or call me. I even video chat with friends across the world from my Korean daughter in England…

to my Prayer and Bible reading with my former husband’s  former fiancé who has become a dear prayer warrior and friend.

Only God can weave the tapestry of my life so uniquely and beautifully into something that will bring Him such glory!! I’m reminded that this life IS NOT about me being happy and comfortable, but about what Yahweh is doing in and through me however that looks! He has taught me that if I keep an open mind, if I don’t sit in judgement of others or think better of myself than I ought to and if I trust that God’s ways are way higher and way different than mine, then I’ll get to experience the most wondrous things this life has to offer. 

A dear friend wrote this today and sent it to me. Aimee has been faithful in sending me scripture every day for years!! Today’s writing is good food for thought. 

 “God gifted this day with the beauty of a full-on sun, giving light and warmth, despite the chilly air, where we have been lacking for weeks. As I made my way around my path, I approached a familiar tree, with a familiar view of the water. Today, I was drawn toward it, to stand under its canopy, sorely depleted of foliage, turn my face to the horizon and just soak in the bright warmth. As I opened my eyes, my gaze fell on the branches above my head. I noticed the few dead leaves that clung tightly, refusing their grip, while the ends of the branches already boasted tiny buds, eager to grow. God revealed to me, in that moment, that there is no "hard stop" to one season we sit in, wishing and waiting for the trial to end so we can be free and happy again. The seasons are bleeding into each other continuously....the growth with the pain, the joys with the sorrow, the abundance with the scarcity. After a long time under the tree pondering this truth, I turned to walk away and noticed the roots, gnarled and knotty, above the ground and then disappearing deep. I looked at those roots a long time, understanding that yet another "season" will soon be hitting, and they will be invisible, covered in a blanket of new, white, sparkly snow. But, yet, the tree will remain firm and draw its strength, throughout all those seasons, because of its  roots. Check your "roots", remain firmly planted and allow the time of each "season" to meld with all the rest.”

 by Aimee Arreguin