A Really Sad Day AND God is Still Good

 The information I’m sharing today is probably going to shock you as it has us. These past 24 hours I’ve cried more tears of sadness for all my cherished family and friends as I’ve had to make the hardest phone calls. If I didn’t call you, it isn’t because I didn’t want to see you or talk, I just got a point of emotional exhaustion for one day. Here is what happened on 4/21/22 in my world. 

My very kind and loving husband drove me to The Christ Hospital for my PET/CT scan. Shout out a young student in charge of my injection and he was so gentle that I told him it was the best ‘stick’ I’ve ever had. Here is a photo of my first Angel of the day. 

On the way home we received THE call. Emma from Dr Cody’s call and shared that the cancer was detected throughout my entire body: lymph nodes, bones including the entire spinal column and hips, liver and lungs. This cancer is not easy to detect with normal blood markers which is why it wasn’t found earlier. Evidently it’s not new and has been in my system a long time. The only reason we found it is because it’s finally advanced enough to affect my breathing. My lungs don’t have just a tumor rather the cancer cells have clogged the entire lymphatic system in both my lungs. 

Dr Cody was so concerned at the seriousness of my condition that he said we were starting treatment TODAY. With my lungs being a vital organ, I could literally be unable to breathe in a short period of time if not treated immediately. And only God knows my day and hour when He’ll escort me Home, it sounded like this type of cancer especially in my lungs as fully as it is, typically doesn’t give most people much time on Earth. So we decided to thank God for today, love deeply, show grace readily, and know that God has me here to simply share His Good News to those who will listen.

Dr Cody had some of his staff stay late to see me. I was the only patient in the entire office. He is a gentle man that is very knowledgeable and tender hearted. I’m very thankful for this kind man who has the unpleasant job of delivering this kind of news.

He explained everything to John and me, answered our questions and got a couple more Angels to get my blood drawn for tests. Caroline, administered  2 shots in my buttocks which is going to block estrogen to basically stop the cells from growing. There are 2 other medications he is ordering that I should have next week. So one oral medication and two drugs administered as shots in my muscles. Caroline did a great job doing a very hard job. Thankfully the Lord made it all very tolerable. I hummed ‘What Child Is This’ while she pushed the thick meds into my bum. My other Angel John Wonderly gently rubbed my back as she did it. 

Next came the hardest part of this day besides seeing my husband hear the news…calling my kids, parents, sisters, boss and a couple friends. I won’t go into it but I’ve cried more tears today than I have in a long time and my sweet sweet hubby held me and cried with me through it all. 

He made me a lovely dinner and we both dropped into bed holding each other and I’m being thankful for this faithful, humble, compassionate best friend a wife could ever ask for.